That's How We Got to Memphis

I am finding that I am really enjoying blogging. Even if nobody ever really reads them, I REALLY like it. It’s something that I have thought about doing off and on for awhile. Since we are moving, I thought it would be a great way for our families and friends to keep up with us(if they want to) when we leave. I am going to use this blog to talk about our move. There are a lot of people that I am sure don’t understand this at all and that’s perfectly understandable. I am sure if somebody told me our whole story, I might think they were crazy too. I think some people still think we are going to back down and out of this decision. But, we aren’t crazy and we aren’t changing our minds. God has chosen this path for us and unless He changes it, we are still leaving for Memphis in June. Honestly, I think it took me a little while to come to terms with it all. That surprised me. In a conversation several months ago, the topic of Memphis School of Preaching came up, not for any other reason other than it was just a random conversation. After listening about it, we were quite intrigued. After a week of talking about it everyday, we started talking and having a Bible study on how to listen to God and what He wants us to do. We wanted to make sure that our own personal feelings weren’t interfering in the decision. So after lots of prayer and more and more talks, we were really leaning towards actually doing it. So we planned a visit to the school. We toured the facilities, sat in on a class and toured the apartments. Quite honestly, I shut down after the apartment tour and I started slightly freaking out. Okay, maybe more than slightly. I was in full on panic mode at the same time Jeremy was absolutely ecstatic and ready to face it head on. Change scares me beyond belief. And I think that is where I was struggling with it all. I cried when I posted our house for sale on Facebook and the day we put the “For Sale” sign in the yard. I don’t remember exactly at what point, I floated back to earth and back to reality, but I did and I am good with it. And please don’t misunderstand me, it wasn’t that I didn’t want to do this. I did, I was just scared.

We were told to not sound overly excited because people wouldn’t understand it. That was not meant to offend anybody but it’s because it would appear that we were excited about leaving everybody. I am a girl that for the most part, I wear my feelings all over my face. I can’t hide much. And it’s hard for me to hide my excitement. I try to keep it toned but I am going to voice it here. We aren’t excited about leaving everybody. We have lived here all of our lives. And most of our families live here and we love them. We may not see each other a lot and we may not always agree with decisions the others make and blah blah blah, but we still love each other. And it makes us sad to leave. I am also sad to be leaving my job. I never set out to be an insurance agent, but it’s where I ended up and where I have been for 9 + years. My boss is like another daddy to me. Not meant to replace my own daddy but I work with the man 8 hours a day and so a lot of times, he is who I go to for advice other than Jeremy. He has been so very good to me and treated me like one of his own children. I also am blessed to work with my best friend. If you don’t know Shannon Bell, you should. She is quiet and gets overlooked a lot, but she is by far one of the best people I know. And whoever doesn’t know her is really missing out. Despite the fact that every once in awhile her claws can come out, she is one of the most humble people you will ever meet. And not to mention all of my other fabulous, sweet and funny friends who I will miss like crazy. Our house, our first house that we have ever owned. It makes me sad that we are leaving our cozy little house and 1.42 acres. I love our spot of land and will miss it like crazy. There are lots of things about Pulaski that we will miss. I don’t know if God will lead us back here after the school is over or not, but we are willing to go where He leads us. Aside from all this, we are soooo excited. This is going to an experience like no other. My husband has become an amazing Christian man over the last several months. He has blossomed in an unbelievable way. Most people don’t know me and don’t know the things I battle on a daily basis, but I am looking forward to the experience of living in a complete Christian environment. I am looking forward to this making me a better person. I struggle in so many ways as a human being and as a Christian and I am hoping this will be a huge help…not hope, I know it will be. I have told Jeremy time and time again that he needed to go back to school and he is getting an opportunity to do it and work for God at the same time. What most people don’t know because they have never bothered to get to know it is that Jeremy is extremely smart. He amazes me everyday. If he had of tried when he was in school, there is no telling what he would have done. But everything happens for a reason, and I fully believe that everything we have been thru has been preparing us for this. So even if you don’t understand, that’s okay. We don’t expect you to. I ask for prayers, because all though people don’t understand it and they may be mad at us for doing this and even though we made this decision with God’s help, it’s not going to be easy and we can use all the prayers we can get. God Bless you all and thanks for reading!