Am I what God wants me to be?

Two in one night- I haven't had much time at home lately because we have either been at work or at the nursing home or taking care of other business. I haven't focused a lot of attention on my blog.
I am a thinker. Jeremy says I read too much into things and people's thoughts. He is right, I guess. I have to learn to be me and not what I think everybody wants me to be or what they are. Everybody is different and I am different and it's okay to be that way. I get a lot slack a lot because I say random silly things or because I am disorganized or I am forgetful. I'm not perfect and I will be the very first one to tell you that I'm not. Just today I asked Jeremy if I was a good person. I don't want to not be a good person and I always want to be nice to people. I don't want to be selfish and although I know I can be, I don't intend on being that way. I would much rather go out of my way to be nice to someone than to tell them off. However, that doesn't mean that I don't ever want to blow a fuse. God and Jeremy know me for me. And honestly that's the only two that matter. They both know my heart better than anybody and God knows it most of all. I just wish I could understand that those two are really the only two that matters. I love them both because I can be myself, my true, honest to the bone self. I know that no matter what I do they will love me. That's a wonderful feeling and something I try to stay mindful of and thankful of. I have a lot of growing to do as a Christian and I am looking forward to the next two years in Memphis because I think they are going to help me in so many ways. And maybe I will learn to love me too and learn to be a better person and most importantly a better child of God and a better wife. Jeremy said the other day that we don't need to look back on what we have been but wake up everyday and say am I a good Christian today, and am I reflecting what a Christian should be and I am doing things the way I should. So live everyday for God and what He wants us to do and the rest will fall into place. God Bless!!!