Contract!!!

Well after a wonderful weekend spent in Dover at the Land Between the Lakes COC and back to Culleoka at Scribner's Mill, I got a call this morning from our realtor saying we have a contract on our house. I literally almost started boo hooing on the phone with him. Keep in mind, the person that gave us our first offer on our house, has never stepped foot in it. Crazy!!! Well maybe not crazy, because God had His hand in it!!! We accepted their offer. Now please pray that inspection and the appraisal will go well so we can close on it. They are wanting to be closed by April 30th. This will leave us homeless for almost 2 months. So, I am also asking for prayers on our behalf to help us figure out what we need to do about that situation. As much as I am so sad about leaving my home, family and friends, I am almost ready to get all this over with and get settled in in Memohis. I am such a worry wart and I am honestly afraid that I will completely batty by June. You might also want to pray for Jeremy for that reason! :-) That's all for now, just wanted to share the good news and ask for prayers!

Purity and Parenting(I know...I'm not a parent)

I wished I could shout it on the mountain tops to young people that sexual purity is a good thing. And it's a glorious thing and most important is one of the best gifts from God. He gives us this gift to hold on tight to. And one day it's time to turn that gift over, but it's only suppose to be for our spouses. Hormones are a terrible thing and hard to fight sometimes. I only wish for those young people to have more respect for themselves and each other and most importantly, more respect for God. I'm not sure what it would take to make kids understand this. I say a lot that I am not perfect, I have made plenty of mistakes. I would like to take the mistakes I have made and learned from and try to help teach others. I know that first, the change needs to be made in each individual household. Parents have got to step up and be parents and not friends. I am a believer that you can still be your child's friend(to a degree). I say that meaning that they should be able to come to the parents to talk. It's always awkward talking to your parents about things, but if they felt more comfortable about talking about things to their parents then the parents may have a better understanding of what they need to do to keep their child away from the harmful and non Christian things. That doesn't mean that there shouldn't be a line. The parents are still the role models and the disciplinary people. If a child isn't telling them what's going on in school and what Johnny or Susie told them about sex or drugs or alcohol, how is the parent suppose to ward these things off. I am not a parent so I don't know what it's really like. I know from the child's perspective because that's all I have been up to this point. I told Jeremy the other night that I so wished for boys because I feel like Jeremy is an excellent example and would teach some boys how to be respectable men and how to treat a lady. He still opens the car door for me and we have been married for almost 6 years. I am not naive enough that kids are still going to make mistakes, but we need to figure out why they do and how we can help change that and help be positive and good Christian role models. I don't know how parents deal with the mistakes their child makes and probably most parents never know the mistakes they have made. I learned some heart ache recently of someone that I try to mentor and realizing that I don't think they listened to a word I said. It makes you feel like a failure. And it breaks your heart. We just have to follow God and know that we have to live by His word and He will show us the way. Good luck to all you parents! You don't have a easy job! God Bless!

It's MY blog

I realize the title of this blog sounds very selfish, but I have a reason for it. Today didn't start off as the greatest of days and my night last night wasn't most wonderful. Usually those are the times when I want to blog the most. I use to write in a journal religiously and it was a huge comfort and it provided the most comfort when things weren't going great. I had just told Jeremy last night that there were several people on Facebook recently that only post negative things and I was thinking that it makes me feel depressed. Not everybody wants to read/listen to a "Debbie Downer." But today as I was contemplating a blog, I was already beating myself up for it because it was too "Debbie Downerish." And then I realized that it's MY blog. I am not forcing anybody to read it. Although I do put it out for the public to read. Just like all those Facebook people-it's THEIR Facebook. They have a right to put whatever they want(just wished some would abstain from posting profanity of any kind). Nobody is perfect. I repeat, NOBODY is perfect. I am sure not perfect. Ask Jeremy or my boss or my friends. I make mistakes way more than I would like to admit and way more than I want to. But what most people don't realize is that I beat myself up for these mistakes. Jeremy is probably the only one(other than God) that knows how much I beat myself up for the smallest things. And people regret their mistakes but I dwell on mine. I am like a pig that wallows in the mire. I wallow in my mistakes and what other people think of me. And I don't exaggerate this at all. Jeremy just told me last night that I have to stop worrying so much. I am seriously doomed for a heart attack or nervous breakdown because I am a natural worry wart about EVERYTHING! I waste a lot of time worrying, I know this. As much as Jeremy wants me to stop worrying, I want to even more. I live with myself everyday and sometimes having my brain is no fun. I get tired of worrying about what everybody thinks of me and if I smiled big enough or what if they think I don't like them or what if they think....on and on and on it goes. I can't please everybody and until I can fully understand that, I will probably be a worrier. But one thing I am going to try and not worry about is what I post in my blogs. Again, I will not always please everybody, but this is my blog and I am going to not focus on everybody else. Maybe, somewhere a long the way, what I write will help somebody. Just like with my Infertility blog. I offended somebody and it was in no way, shape or form meant to offend anyone. It's just something that I deal with and maybe somebody going thru the same struggles will read my blog and it will help them. I do always hope that I don't offend anybody because that is the kind of person I am. But I am going to try not to hold back as much as I usually do. I have tons of things to be thankful for everyday of my life and so does everybody else. You can always find something to be thankful for. I do firmly believe that sometimes the struggles we have emotionally aren't things that we can help. I think they are genetically engineered in us. I was adopted, but my birth mother passed away in July. I realized afterwards(because of some info that I obtained) that she apparently struggled with some of the things that I struggled with. I did not have a relationship with her. I had met her a few times and we lived in the same town but she did not raise me. But I do have her genes and I think there were probably some similiarties in how we handled things. I may not ever know, but it is interesting to think about. So don't beat yourself up. Again, we aren't perfect and we don't always have good days. Just try to find something in every day to be thankful for. God Bless