Late Night Planning

I feel like there have been more “rough” days lately than not “rough” days. My rough days aren’t anything in comparison to what a lot of people go thru on a daily basis. We are extremely blessed. It’s only rough because I make it that way. If you really know me, you know it doesn’t take much to stress me out. I have stressed all day about telling somebody that I needed a day at home on Monday instead of doing what we had planned. Why? I don’t know, if I knew why then maybe I could get to the bottom of it and stop worrying! I went and got my hair cut last week and that was the first time I had been since our decision about MSOP. So I was telling my hairdresser about it all and when she got to my hair around my ears(where ALL the gray is) she was like wow, you have really been stressing.  Sigh…Yes, yes I have. I am sure my grays have multiplied as the wrinkles on my face have as well. After a talk with Shannon on the phone tonight about a certain issue, I called my sister Vickie about the same issue. Not intending to lay it all out because as much as I like to talk, I sometimes hoard certain things between myself and a couple of other people. I guess she got me at THAT moment. Anyways, it turned into a much needed pep talk with her. Over the hour conversation and talk about how to redirect my energy into something else other than worry and stress and her suggesting doing a New Year’s resolution list. Okay, I gave up resolutions several years ago because I never kept them anyways. But she brought up the point of reminding ourselves once a week about those resolutions to make sure we keep them. And we weren’t talking about losing weight or the “normal” resolutions. For instance, one of mine is to study my Bible more. I haven’t been doing very well with that lately and it makes a huge difference on my day to day life. I don’t really intend on sharing all of my resolutions, but I am going to focus on trying to redirect my energy more. I need to become more organized so that maybe I can redirect my energy more efficiently. I have about decided that I need daily To Do Lists. I am a procrastinator by birth and I will start things and not fully finish them. And two days later wished that I had of done them the first day because now I REALLY don’t want to do them.  With a move coming up and all the packing and preparation, more than ever, my brain has turned into a whole new meaning of frazzled. But like I said, it doesn’t take much to stress me out. So I am going to try this. Another resolution I have is to get more sleep and try to go to bed at a decent time and get on a better schedule. As Vickie was letting me go, she said to drink some water and go to bed. That’s been over an hour ago and it’s now 12:02 AM and I am sitting at the kitchen table writing this and I have already had my sewing machine out working on my first burp cloth(which I successfully finished). My eyelids are getting heavy though. I really wanted to sew some more too. Maybe I will leave it all out and work on it tomorrow if I have the chance. I guess that’s all for now. Thanks for reading! God Bless!